All of a sudden, I’m nervous that I’m “talking about myself too much.” I share my story, I offer my opinions, I write about how I’m optimistic about my future… So am I being selfish here? I hope not. I guess I just share myself because I want to make a positive difference in this world. I want to uplift the people I encounter, and help there to be perhaps one more little ray of sunshine out there. Earth needs them.
With that being said, I’ll share my musings for the day.
I like the prospect of earning supplemental income as a freelance writer, but it’s also a lot of hustle. And hustle is tiring! I’m realizing over the months, that I like writing because it is a way for me to express my inner musings. A way for me to share my personal self with the world. And as people read what I write, they get to know me. People who like what I write then come into my life, and I find that they are the best of friends, more compatible with me than those I even meet in real life!
For the moment, I’ve veered away from freelance writing for pay. I currently want to focus more on discovering my personal voice through writing. While this does not put bread on my plate, it will help me become a better writer. Writing from the heart is what motivates me to keep going on, even when I think my writing “sucks.” To be honest, I was getting discouraged with trying to send pitches to places for income, because I felt that my writing was not genuine.
I see that many websites have a particular political slant or cultural emphasis, and they pick submissions that go along with their overall “vibe.” The problem I have is, I question EVERYTHING. I not only question the status quo, but I question the people (etc.) who question the status quo! This is hard, because it somehow causes me to disagree with everyone I meet on some level. But at the same time, this mentality has allowed for me to find compassion for even the most cantankerous of people. I am no saint, but I attempt to live with love and happiness in my heart.
The only internet community that I seem to “fit in” with is the mental health awareness/advocacy/stigma fighting community. When I write here from the heart, people read me how I want to be read. I’ve also befriended some pen pals online from Germany, but again, my enthusiasm for the German language and culture is a fierce passion of mine. I find that when I follow my passions, I find the most of fulfillment.
Fortunately, there are unpaid sites that publish my essays. I’m glad to get my voice out there, and I’m glad to have my opinions heard. I also have this little blog 🙂 This blog is a wonderful, personal space that I have created for myself… If I am frustrated with the online cultures of big-name paid sites, then I have my own site here where I call the shots!
Although, I’m the only writer here. No matter. The world still turns. Stigma must be fought. Voices need to be heard. Fighting for freedom needs to happen now. And so I try.